4/14/2006
noone but me from URL @ 11:03 PM
hmm.
okay, i seriously don't know what i wna blog about.
maybe except that im thankful for next week?
only macbeth test, and fri's a short day.
with the exception of sports day, where i'll be TRYING to RUN 800m.
and positively DIE after that because,
no1) i cannot sprint 2 rounds.
no2) i absolutely cannot
no3) it wont even help if i believe i can.
no4) im gna throw my face in front of manymany people. people who will be cheering me on, when its so obvious that im gna lose. DUH
well, losing my face doesnt really matter, i guess.
for THREEI for GARDE.
SHEESH. and sher, bribe me with CHOCS to complete the race. RAHH.
oh well. OH WELL.
okay, another would be syf!
yay, i miss doing armdrills. though the ones we're doing are different. okay, very different. haha, when doing hormat can see so many people's hands sticking out. heh. (: but i like. and we'll be shooting full de jour' in front of PM! okay. haa.
unneccessary.
oh, no1 too!
erm. oh ya, im screwin all the tests i did so far?
and, i LOVE school. no matter how much i dread going to school, once im there i dont regret at all. even as soon as i walk to school i dont regret. i think my friends ROCK. yeap, if you're reading this, you ROCK. dont get too ego huh?
they make me smile. isnt that the most important?
or they wna make me smile when im not.
they warm my heart.
YAY(:
okay, hasnt this been a gay post?
and i choose to live in denial. cos i'd rather not deal with it till im forced to.
tell me im weak. i'll accept. but make sure that you who tell me that, are strong.
else, go away.
anyway, on another random note; i think that living in denial isn't as it is stereotyped.
i dont think its all that unhealthy.
cos sometimes when you're in denial you actually are so successful at it that you forget. you forget about the mask you're trying to wear, and actually become that happy-mask. and when you do, your happiness, your smile comes straight from the heart. a sharp contrast than to when you choose to constantly remind yourself of your state and each time you feel the slightest sense of happiness you are probed back into reality and you wont feel happy nomore. wont that be sad?
but then again, when you live in denial and are jerked back into reality, ouch.
its just me, but i'd rather jerk back and suffer from then, rather than suffer throughout on a milder note. okay, RAMBLINGS.
i like the word " lil"
and i think perfection shoudn't be.
its mocking and us and at the same time pushin us towards nth.
they say, nth's perfect and yet there exists a word to which nothing can be labelled.
whats the point?
perhaps its to enkindle us, to push us towards perfection.
but then again, if nth's perfect, then whats the word perfection trying to push us to achieve?
as in if perfection cannot be attained, then what are we workin towards?
why does the word perfection exist then?
ha. to mock us, why dont you say.
or perhaps its that sense of satisfaction when you're close to perfection.
but then again, how would you know if you're close to perfection if you dont even know what perfection is like?
HAHA. okay, nonsense.
evidently, im tired.
and i think what will kill me for lit is my incoherance. honestly, im embarrassed. i have too many things to say, that i dont know how to.
okay, GOODBYE! (:
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